The Technicality Test of Accessibility

I’m autistic, and while I don’t take absolutely everything literally, I’ve realised recently that I’ve been struggling to accept accessibility adjustments for a while. 

The lifts at my university say “don’t use if you can use the stairs” or something along those lines. 
So for a while I’ve looked at those signs and I’ve thought “well, I can technically use the stairs, so I guess I shouldn’t use the lift”. After all, I’m not a wheelchair user so I am technically capable of using the stairs. 

But it makes me tired and it causes me joint pain, which in turn makes me even more tired and less able to focus on the things I need to focus on. 

So, the question is, am I actually capable of using the stairs, or am I only able to on a technicality? 

A lot of the time, I stop myself from using accessibility methods because I can technically get by without. In the past, I’ve not taken adequate breaks because I can technically keep going. I’ve not asked for help because I can technically do it by myself. I’ve not used the lift because I can technically use the stairs. 

Technically. Always technically. 

But I’ve realised that if something is only true on a technicality, it’s more or less not true at all.

So yes, I may technically be able to use the stairs, but using the lift makes my day far easier and allows me to better manage other things I have to do. 

I may technically be able to finish my university course without support from the access service, but using the resources will help me not burn out. 

Things that are true on a technicality aren’t really true at all, and I am allowed to make adjustments for myself to make the world around me more accessible.